I’m M.17917922_10212452504208967_5690308741037561075_o



Pharmacy Technician. Feminist. Former Mormon. Daughter. Sister. Food Addict. Future Graduate Student. Socially Anxious. Former Anorexic. And, of course, Blogger.

I am a strong-headed feminist. I demand gender equality in a world where women are STILL second-class citizens in comparison to men, in virtually every aspect of life. The most frustrating thing to me about this world is that we are no where close to treating everyone as equals-as people. Women are advertised as objects; commodities, and society is teaching us to believe that we are no more than objects, and faulty ones at that. The societal pressure we feel to look perfect and beautiful is diminishing our own feelings of self-worth and I want that to change.

I have been personally affected by societal pressure to be “beautiful” from an early age. When I was only thirteen years old, I developed an eating disorder because I felt that I was worthless until I was thin, and would stop at nothing until I was finally skinny enough to be considered beautiful. It wasn’t until I had gotten my weight down to 78 pounds, and become quite skeleton-like that I had finally cracked and pulled myself back together.Ā I don’t think that anyone ever truly “beats” anorexia. I think that it is something I will struggle with for the rest of my life. I still get feelings of self-loathing after eating anything that isn’t a vegetable, have binge episodes, and kill myself at the gym most days. I’m still trying to figure out how to manage my disorder and not allow it to control my life. Success pending.

I tell you about this experience because it could have been avoided. If society didn’t equate skinny with beautiful, I probably wouldn’t have developed such a distorted body image. I probably wouldn’t have starved myself in order to conform with what the world is telling me I need to look like in order to be of value. I am sick and tired of being unhappy with the way I look, and I am sick and tired of a woman’s value being defined by her size, shape, complexion, and youthfulness. I want to raise awareness to women and girls that our worth does not decline because we don’t fit into a size 2 or that our faces are not perfectly symmetrical and blemish-free. We have way more to offer than our physical appearance.

Objectification of women is just one of many issues I have with society. I was raised in a community that values traditional family structures and conformity, and seems to have a very low tolerance for deviance. I feel like a plague to be avoided around here, because I desire a life completely different than the one i’ve been taught is the “right” way to live. A homemaker is the last thing I see myself becoming in this lifetime, and kids are still a “maybe” in my current draft of life plans. I’m a career woman, and feel that my life would be most enriched and fulfilled by academia and a career.Ā I’m an outsider here, and let me tell you, it gets lonely. I’m still looking anxiously for where I fit in this vast world.

Hopefully this little blurb of information contextualizes my posts a little bit for you, and hopefully the thoughts I choose to share with you spark some insightful discussions and understanding of you, no matter your view points.

Thanks for reading, and please feel free to give me all the feedback you can manage! Hell, let’s argue about something.

With love,



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  4. I love your blog . And most importantly I love how you take pride in who you are . šŸ™‚ keep up the good work šŸ™‚


  5. Hi Maddiesen,
    It’s me again! šŸ™‚ No I am not stalking you either (lol). I love your about page. You are so talented, beautiful and very entertaining with your words and writing. Keep up the great works in all areas and I am sure whatever you choose to do in your life you will succeed. You have already proven you are a survivor! Thanks, again for reading and liking my blog as well. šŸ™‚


  6. Thank you so much! I am honored!(: of course I will be participating in the award chain! I really appreciate you reading, and am looking forward to checking out your blog as well!(:


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  8. Hi!! This is the author of the Ban Fake article! As another ED survivor, it is great to hear someone confirm what I’ve felt for a couple years now-that anorexia can only be monitored and never cured. You are so brave to put up a “lowest weight” photo! Congratulations on moving past such a trying time. I’m glad I found your blog!
    PS. I’m with you 100%- denim jeans are the LIVING WORST.


  9. Oh my! I am simply honored! Haha thank you so much for the nomination! And by the way, you have one kick-ass blog, my friend. I will most certainly be participating in the Very Inspiring Blogger Award! Tomorrow, though, because I am a sleepy procrastinator…(: cheers!

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  10. Thanks so much for reading!(: As I am growing up, I’m becoming more and more educated on the ways women are oppressed in everyday life, and I have freaking had it. So glad there are people out there who are with me.(: I hit you up with a follow, and look forward to reading more from you as well! Happy blogging!(:


  11. After your comment on my blog, I thought I’d check yours out. You sound like the kind of person we need more of on this planet! Like pretty much everyone, you fell prey our image-driven, male dominated society and you’ve got through it, which is incredible.
    Also, don’t worry about feeling lost, I’m just finishing up at uni and have no idea where I want to go or what I want to do. Dabble in things until you find something that works, wheres the rush? šŸ™‚
    And keep up with the blog, I look forward to reading it!


  12. Wow! The moment your blog loaded it was like I was looking at a wide variety of ice-cream choices and finding it hard to choose one. I mean there are lots to check out here and I am really excited to check out EVERYTHING! And I will too.
    I’m a little short on time now. You know, busy teenage life and stuff (boring). But I will. Thanks for dropping by my blog. I’m glad you liked it and I love yours. Something tells me we’re gonna be the best of friends lol šŸ˜‰
    Kudos! x


  13. Thank you so much for your kind words! It really means a lot to me(: I adore your blog as well and am looking forward to following up with it! Thanks again, and take care(:


  14. I am so happy that you commented on my post. Your blog is incredible and I am inspired by you. You asked if I cared to check out your blog and I’m absolutely glad I did!


  15. Your honesty is truly inspiring and I’m sure you will do a world of good in your endeavors! You are beautiful regardless of whether you are a size 2 or a size 12. Stay strong and stay true to yourself! I look forward to reading more of your blog!


  16. Don’t worry, I’m a third year university student and I’m a little lost too. No idea what I want to do from one season to the next, but hey, dare to dream!
    Thanks for checking out my blog Maddie! Keep up the good writing. Stay positive.


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