Voiceless

Have you ever had a million things to say, but nobody to say them to?

That’s me, as of present.

As you can infer from previous posts, (and, quite frankly, this entire motherflippin’ website) my life is the kind of mess that Mr. Clean would shake his bald head at in surrender. As you can imagine, I have a thing or two on my mind.

My social circle is small. Like, point-of-a-freshly-sharpened-#2 Pencil-small. Recipients of my potentially verbalized thoughts are very limited.

And those within my minuscule social circle seem to not want to hear what I have to say. Granted, some of my feelings and grievances are completely irrational, (Not. Rational. I admit it, geez.) but it seems as though lately, I rarely even get the chance to finish.

Now, I’m not playing the vicim here. I found some sort of inspirational quote prompting me to become the heroine in my story, rather than the victim, so that’s what my new mindset, and phone wallpaper, as of recent.

I don’t even want sympathy. Sympathy pisses me off.

I’ll tell you what I want, what I really, really want.

I want a trusted individual to listen to a complete, raw, uncensored, irrational rant of mine, and not say a single thing until I’ve indicated that i’ve finished. Then, I want them to respond with a Denzel-Washington-From-Remember-The-Titans pep-talk, and a hug.

But for now, I will settle for writing my desires here for you lovely people, and leave it at that.

SHUT UP AND LISTEN.

M.

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4 thoughts on “Voiceless

  1. i hear ya sista!!! nothing shameful about keeping a small circle, unless friendships are fulfilling and function as a two way street where you are being heard just as much as your friends (and totally heard, until our rants are done with) then they are not worth the effort. being really heard and understood at a deep level is fucking wonderful but rare!

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  2. “I’ll tell you what I want, what I really, really want.” Can anyone in the whole world NOT sing the Spice Girls when reading that?! Love that you threw it in. And now that I’m saying this I really hope it was on purpose.

    Anyway, I hope you get what you really, really want =]

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  3. So many pop culture references here that made me giggle. That Spice Girls song will be in my head the rest of the day. And at the end you made me think of that Linkin Park song “shut up when I’m talking to you.” Lol. It’s hard to find someone who will listen like that. If you find that mythological creature you seek, please do let me know!

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